- Reached 50,000 words and beat NaNoWriMo.
- The new Pokemon games came out today.
- Finished my bounty hunter on SWTOR and am approaching the end of chapter 2 on an imperial agent. Almost finished every class on the side of the empire.
- I’ve mostly been avoiding the shops this week, but I have treated myself to couple of deals.
- Finally starting to feel the Christmas mood, can’t wait for the decorations to go up.
- It’s the weekend and might even treat myself to a takeaway tonight.
So I hit my target of 50,000 words today and became a NaNoWriMo Winner. It feels strange when you’ve been focussed on something for so long when it is suddenly removed. Even if you really wanted to get it done, you still feel at a loss when it’s over. I haven’t finished my story mind. At the start much of my panic revolved around whether my idea could stretch to 50,000, but now that I’m there those worries seem silly and I still have a fair bit to go, plus I want to edit and improve it. So getting to this point isn’t actually the end, but just one achievement on my journey that I can enjoy.
- I’ve now written 37,895 words since the start of NaNoWriMo. Just a week left to go.
- Went to see the film The Imitation Game earlier in the week. It was a really good film. Had some humour in it but was pretty touching too. Saw a lot of trailers for new films I really want to see too, such as the one about Stephen Hawking.
- It’s the weekend at last. I want to take it easy, eat nice food and play lots of games. I’ll have to keep writing of course.
I’m now on 36,950 words and the end is in sight. I’ve been finding it a little bit easier this week. I was relieved to be able to catch up with my words last week because it would mean I could still meet my target while writing slightly less per day, but since that point I’ve actually been writing more. It feels better to be gaining on words rather than catching up. As well as that, it no longer feels like such a high goal to reach with just 13,050 words left to go. I remember it felt like I’d accomplished a lot just when I’d hit my first 10,000, but now I’m looking forward to reaching 40,000 because it’ll mean I just have that thin slice left to go. I’ve already written more than that so I know I can do it.
- I’ve now written 23,987 since NaNoWriMo started.
- I finished another class on Star Wars The Old Republic – the sith warrior – and the ending was pretty epic. Next I’m moving onto bounty hunter. Making the most out of the 12x experience.
- I finally watched Saw 3. I know that probably doesn’t sound like a big deal, but I actually have a fear of fainting so I’m terrified of anything that I’ve come to associate with triggering those feelings (blood, pain, crowds, hot places, overexertion.) – I realize how odd that sounds coming from a horror fan. I enjoyed the first two films but failed to sit through the 3rd one after developing this problem, so it became like a personal mountain for me to climb. Not sure if I’ll bother with the others though.
I now have 21,938 words and in just a few days time I’ll have hopefully passed the half way point. I think even if I don’t succeed at reaching the full 50,000, I’ll feel a sense of achievement just for getting to this point. I’ve caught up with my words, despite having missed the first two days. I can get away with writing slightly less per day now, which feels a lot easier by comparison and should motivate me to keep going.
I think I’m also finding it easier because I’m becoming better acquainted with my characters as I go. I’m also getting better at not editing while I write. Loads of new ideas are coming to me throughout this process, and so there are probably bits that don’t make so much sense now or are not in the right place within the story. I do often find it difficult to fully plan for something before starting though. It’s usually while I work on something that the best ideas come to me. I’m seeing this as just a part of that process of formulating my story, and then I can neaten it up afterwards.
When I write I usually do so in order, but I have been jumping around a little bit more during this as ideas have come to me. I’ve been trying to write so many words per day so as to keep up, but I have to admit that I’m finding the count to be a bit too much of a distraction adding to the pressure to write. I find that I tend to get good and bad days that affect how quickly and well I can write. I’ve hidden the word count and have found it’s better to instead set a routine of writing for so long each day. Usually if you don’t worry about it and just develop the habit of working every day the content will just happen as a result of that. I’ve also found that scribbling a few notes down before starting seems to help prepare me to start writing.
I did have a bit of a blip last week. I’m using my laptop for this; Sometimes I spend a lot of time up at my boyfriend’s place so It’s important to be able to carry it around with me. My laptop has always worked well and been reliable for me. I’ve used to build games, websites and create digital artwork without any problems. I had typed out a few paragraphs and then it suddenly blue screened on me. Luckily it came back, my work was recovered and I’ve had no issues since, but the trust is gone. I’ve been backing up my work every day anyway.
- Spent a couple of nights in Scarborough for the weekend. Travelled over on Saturday to enjoy the Whitby Goth festival. Had a lot of fun.
- I’ve written close to 10,000 words this week.
- Finally completed a character on Star Wars The Old Republic and have gotten a new one to a good start.
- I have a pre-order of Pokemon Omega Ruby (which apparently comes with a figure or something), plus the Diancie code is now finally available at the Game store. Not too much longer to wait now.
I didn’t really get to the best start with this because the beginning of this month coincided with the Whitby Goth festival, so I’m already running a little behind. I’ve been writing a few extra words each day in the hopes of gradually catching that up, but I have to admit that it’s proving more difficult than I thought it would be.
I tend to be an early riser, and after a good nights sleep I find I can be very productive. I tend to start slowing down later on and I struggle to find the words to add to the page. The main difficulty I’m finding is that I have a bad habit of editing while I write, and I have to learn to let go of that inner perfectionist. I remember when I use to write as a kid and how I would just go for it unplanned. It didn’t really matter, I just enjoyed splashing out my imagination onto the page. Now that I’m older it sort of eats away at me to know that much of what I’ve written probably isn’t very good. Although it really doesn’t matter because it’s a personal journey that I wanted to attempt just for the experience and enjoyment of it anyway. There’s no consequence if I don’t succeed – although I do have a stubborn resolve when I put my mind to something – and nobody has to see the final thing. I can also spend as long as I like editing it afterwards. I’m starting to think more like, I just have to get a lot of content down to work through afterwards. I do think some magical moments have emerged in the writing too and I hope to find more of where they’ve come from.
I really loved one of the pep talks from Chuck Wendig, that I think you could easily apply to many creative pursuits:
‘The blank page is yours. Cast aside worries over art and criticism. Imagine a land without rules. Imagine that nobody has ever told you that you cannot or should not do this thing. Those people were wrong. Forget those voices. Because, for real?
It’s an empty field and you’ve got the keys to a freaking Ferrari.
It’s a white tablecloth and you’ve got ketchup, mustard, and relish.
It’s a blank page and you’ve got all the letters and words you need.
Rev the engine and take the ride. Paint with all the colors the condiments at your table allow. Create whatever robot-human monstrosities your mind cares to conjure. Crack open your chest and plop your heart onto the page.
Right now: just write. Donuts in an empty field.
Leave your mark.’
I’m quite fond of Whitby and have visited a few times. It feels pretty bleak at times, resting by the sea and overlooked by the abbey. There are a couple of times every year when the goths emerge to attend a special weekend. I attended for the first time last year to see one of my favourite singers Aurelio Voltaire. There were other music acts on too and I left feeling awed by what I’d experienced. What really stood out to me was how welcoming the atmosphere was. I felt like I belonged and could walk around freely as myself without being judged. To me that is one of the wonderful things about goths, that they tend to be open minded and accepting of others no matter what they look like. In Whitby people don’t seem to hesitate to offer a friendly hello.
I got to enjoy the festival for a second time last weekend. It was a pretty special occasion being the 20th anniversary. Rather oddly, the weather was really sunny too and I got to enjoy fish cakes, ice cream and fresh doughnuts beforehand. There was some awesome music on the night I attended; Lesbian Bed Death, Bad Pollyanna, Rhombus, Hugh Cornwell and of course Aurelio Voltaire.
Bad Pollyanna were especially amazing and touched me rather deeply by firstly singing the song ‘Define Me’ which is about not judging people and putting them into boxes. They then followed up with the beautiful song ‘Invincible Girl’, which was released to support the Sophie Lancaster Foundation – to promote tolerance of other sub-cultures and to reduce hate crime. I often feel like many sub-cultures are either under-represented or misrepresented, and have had my own set of bad experiences, so it meant a lot me. I got a signed CD from them afterwards. Voltaire was his usual funny, amazing self coming on with just a guitar and a bottle of rum. I got to hear some of my favourite songs live for the first time. There was also a sneak peak at what he is working on next. I loved the long coat he was wearing too.
Unfortunately, I did start to fatigue towards the end for it was a pretty long night. There has to be a trick to standing for so long, but I think I had it worse for I strained my flat feet at the gym earlier in the week. Note to self, at my next concert rest my feet beforehand. Oh and maybe buy some comfier shoes too.
I feel sad that it’s over now because I was looking forward to it for so long. There aren’t many goth friendly hangouts where I live. The few places I did go to have changed over the years (they’re pretty grimy too.) I suppose I’ll have to save up and wait for the next festival to come around.